The last 2 days have been my worst in months. My body is past expression of pain. There is also the burning in legs and feet. Muscle tension headache today. Am depending on spell/grammar check today.
Last night feelings hurt over having to stay in bed. Talked to myself about fighting. Get up. Get up and fight this. But body could not. Today same. Worse though. Actually scream inside my head because pain is everywhere and severe.
But thought came that I am still fighting. Haven't given up. Sometimes the fight is from the bed. As long as I am not willingly laying here I am still in the battle. I don't accept that it is over. I am still in the battle.
Sometimes the battle is uphill. That is the hardest part but that also means that I am heading upward and the top is in sight.
I did not choose this path.
I did not choose this battle.
I did not choose this journey.
I did not choose this fight for my life.
But I do choose to win.
Joy
Joy Sweetie;
ReplyDeleteThis touched me so much today I had teaars in my eyes for what we went through now what you are going through I love what you said about it is a battle I need to remember it We will WIN.
Heidi from splashes
Father, You see the spirit, heart and will of this your child, Joy. Please i Your unfailing love and mercy reach through the heavenlies and deposit in Joy the miracle of healing You took those stripes to give. Please Lord, may Your will be done on earth in the here and now as it already is done in heaven.
ReplyDeleteLove you dear Joy.
Sheryl